This is the part of me...

  How do I start this post off, hmmmm. Well let's see, a year ago about this time I had every intention of being engaged by now. And now I can't even imagine that. If you've read my blog you've probably caught on that I mention a certain boy in some posts I've never been called subtle before. The break up was nasty. He has since moved on, I have not. Don't get me wrong I rebounded, I'm just not seriously dating my rebound rookie mistake. One of his friends got married this weekend. Funny story about his particular couple: the night they got engaged  he was there, and 6 hours later he was breaking up with me. So in true Caroline fashion I got myself all worked up knowing he and his new person were in town and what they were here for. So I decided after driving home half in tears half screaming /singing that I would step outside of my monogrammed comfort zone and go see Katy Perry's new movie, by myself. My mom used to tell me about how when she was in her 20s and single she used to go get lunch, go to the movies, and do all sorts of things by herself. I may be biased here, but my mother is amazing. She has always done things her way, knowing things would happen when they were suppose to. And she landed my dad and this incredible life, so I'll trust her word on this one. 

   After dinner I quietly grabbed my purse and keys and headed off to the movies. I'm sure no one else in line noticed I was there by myself but I felt like everyone was staring at me, like this poor girl has no life or friends and is here by herself. Theater 14 was my destination and with my 3-D glasses on I settled in for one of the most inspiring 90 minutes of my summer. Let me get this out there now, I cried. When this movie comes out on DVD  I will buy it, watch it, and probably cry again. I will be a Katy Perry fan for life. Warning: it's not just a concert, fun candy costumes, behind the scenes footage movie. It is for real her life for 395 days. You watch her break the f down and not even be able to go on stage. You watch her go numb when her marriage breaks down. And you watch her do the damn thing on stage night after night no matter what. She made every meet and greet. She's just amaze. More than one of "our" songs were Katy Perry songs, vivid vidid memories attached to these things. And as life is SO ironic at times, Part of Me was the song playing when my gate got up to the start line at the half-marathon in April. So it's fitting that this would be the movie I would go see by myself. And even though I will probably still get worked up every now and then about this moron and how it's not fair that he moved on and I haven't because it's not fair but I will always smile when I think about walking out of the theater by myself Friday night. My life is absolutely incredible. I have the job, car, friends, watch, family, dog, pool, and legs to prove it. Thank you Katy Perry for reminding me of this. 

"But that was then and this is now. Now look at me."