And in your wedding dress, to have and to hold

  A week ago I received one of the best pieces of mail, like ever. The first thing I saw when I began to rip open the envelope trying to keep it together in the mail room was one of my favorite pictures of all time with one of my favorite boys. And it only got better once I FINALLY got the letter open....

   


















I am pleased to say exactly ONE YEAR FROM TODAY I will stand next to one of my very best friends as she marries the man of her dreams and one of the best guys I will probably ever be blessed enough to be over-protected by. I could NOT be more honored, thrilled, happy, "mayyybe buying a wedding countdown clock for myself" excited to be part of Emily and Brendan's big day. These two give me hope there is someone out there who will not only love me but my family and friends as much as his own life. So let's get these kids hitched! 

Remember all the words I said

   I'm not one to get religious in my blogging besides some good #catholicgirlproblems but during a recent Insertion Order (IO) bender I had the new The Fray album on shuffle and stumbled across this gem. There is a hymn, usually sung during communion, that I have memorized simply by hearing it for years that's based off of Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God." And I never truly understood the meaning of it until mom and I were having one of our usual soul searching conversation on the way to Publix this past weekend. She asked if I was happy in life, because she's having trouble with that right now. It's a loaded question, I've discussed it in posts past. But I think I finally figured my answer out. I am happy in my career. I am happy with my wonderful friendships. I am happy with my loving family. I am accepting of my current love life. And all of that makes me happy. There's the saying, God doesn't give you more than you can handle. And reflecting back on my past, it's true. When you try to stuff your "plate" so you have it all, things start to fall apart. The year I thought I had found love I also had my lowest GPA of my college career and endured some excruciating fights with my family. And the year I ran a half marathon, secured two job offers before graduation, and never missed a 10pm mass I was as single as a stick. When I'm secure enough in my life God will guide me to my person or them to me or my friends to make those introductions happen it worked for Mom and Dad. And until that time, I will be still and know that He is with me. 

                 Be still and know that I'm with you. Be still and know that I am here. Be still and know that I'm with you. Be still, be still, and know. When darkness comes upon you. And sleep no longer finds your bed. Remember all the words I said. Be still, be still, be still. If fear falls upon your bed and sleep no longer comes. Remember all the words I said. Be still be still and know. And if you go through the valley. And the shadow comes down from the hill. If morning never comes to be. Be still be still be still. And if you forget the way to go. And lose where you came from. Just know I am standing beside you. Be still be still be still
                                                                                   Be still and know that I'm with you. Be still and know I am

Try to tell you stop but your lipstick got me so out of breath

   In an attempt not to slam my head against my desk repeatedly today I took a quick 5 minute sanity break and read through some of the Advertising 490 blogs and I must say I'm impressed. I may have a couple favorites, but I'm not kissing and telling. So, in ADV 490 throw back fashion I'll share my social media brag tale of the day/week I don't do this on the reg anymore, little rusty  I'm a lip licker, no not a lint licker easily confused, have been since I was little. If I get super zoned out on a project, read, or coloring book I will lick my lips. This cute little quirk paired with running in four seasons worth of weather and prescriptions make keeping my lips hydrated a living hell. Then I discovered EOS, Evolution of Smooth, you know the little pastel colored eggs you see in the pharmacy section of Target? They are a gift from the lip licking savior god himself/herself/itself and it gets even better because they have wet/dry shave gel, hand lotion, and others. If I was Oprah thank God I'm not that fat I would give everyone an EOS and put them on my Favorite Things episode for sure. BUT I"m not, SO back to today, I was about to lay on my office floor and die when I got a text from momma, simply reading "Presents *EMOJI PRESENT ICON* yes, I know, I should have never downloaded that app onto her phone. Julie had done the impossible and found the elusive orange and dark pink EOS eggs! So because Dr. Childers trained me well, I impulsively screen-shot'd that text and tweeted it. And guess WHAT, EOS replied. It's like I'm a star eyed college senior again... So, once again ADV 490 children, it pays off to be a fan boy what did I tell you?

                                       And don't you worry, I passed @eosproducts message on to momma.

You see rainbows when I see rain, isn't that strange

   This entire post should probably be written in size smallest font because quite frankly Jenn Pesek and I's daily gchat/text/drivinghomestuckintraffic phone call marathons are some of the shambliest conversations ever heard. This will also be one of my shortest posts because it would be near impossible to give my @j_pesek testimony without giving away a bajillion inside jokes. How Teresa Giudice has a show and we don't is a question we frequently ask each other. Rihanna apparently found love in a hopeless place, while Jenn and I found friendship across the backyard of a hopeless fraternity event. And the rest is history. So here we are almost a year and a half later. Nail polish color decisions are a group effort. Mirror pics of outfits are a must. Random fratty cards I find and must send to Miss Priss in DC are a commonality. We are loyal like this is The Godfather and neither of us want to go fishing with Fredo. And Lord knows we put together some soundtrack worthy Spotify playlists. Which is why this Wordy Wednesday is dedicated to Aunt Srat, the woman who taught me to embrace dark nails and never be sorry. 

                                                                                           "I was good, she was hot stealin everything I got"

                                                                             Cause when you're done with this world, you know the next is up to you

                                                                                          
                                                                                      DADADADADADADA AFRO  DADADADADADAD CIRCUS

Cause one of these days I'll be born and raised

   He's legal. It's a terrifying thought and kind of makes me feel old because my 18th birthday feels like yearsssssss ago even though yes it was technically years ago But it actually, technically, if things had gone as planned shouldn't be Joe's birthday because he was precisely due to be born on Dad's birthday, October 23rd. So, if you're a math wizard like me you probably figured out the little Pekarsky showed up 5 weeks early, bringing my reign as evil queen to a sudden end. Okay so maybe that's a little dramatic I'm still evil after all. Without crying at my desk don't worry my door's shut I am the luckiest Sissi in the world to have Joseph John Pekarsky as my blonde hair blue eyes Aryan Race little brother who people mistaken as my boyfriend. If I screen shot-ed and shared every outrageous text conversation the two of us had, mom would somehow find them and then kill us. It's like Bridesmaids, we can communicate across the backseat of the car Sophie usually in the middle with just a look followed by laughter and Julie being confused He is one of the smartest, kindest, weirdest, funniest, irritatiest yes I just invented that word, in honor of you Joe most loving, most giving, smelliest people I not only know but have the pleasure of being related to. I would be lost without him or the random meems I receive when half asleep I will never yell louder than I did when he needed to just pass that damn kid at regionals which he DID and took 8th in the Region or look like a bigger dofus when I sobbed at his confirmation why no one in our family thought to brought tissues to that is beyond me So it's our first Jofus Birthday without Joe actually being home and I know it's killing us all a little deep down inside, so here's my final birthday present to you baby brother. I love you. Happy Birthday. 

"I could watch you for a lifetime. You're my favorite movie. A thousand endings, you mean everything to me. I never know what's comin'. Forever fascinated. Hope you don't stop runnin' to me, cause I'll always be waitin'. You are a cinema I could watch you forever. Action thriller, I could watch you forever. You are a cinema, a Hollywood treasure. I love you just the way you are. A cinema, a cinema. Never know what movie you're playin'. My cinema."