Remember all the words I said

   I'm not one to get religious in my blogging besides some good #catholicgirlproblems but during a recent Insertion Order (IO) bender I had the new The Fray album on shuffle and stumbled across this gem. There is a hymn, usually sung during communion, that I have memorized simply by hearing it for years that's based off of Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God." And I never truly understood the meaning of it until mom and I were having one of our usual soul searching conversation on the way to Publix this past weekend. She asked if I was happy in life, because she's having trouble with that right now. It's a loaded question, I've discussed it in posts past. But I think I finally figured my answer out. I am happy in my career. I am happy with my wonderful friendships. I am happy with my loving family. I am accepting of my current love life. And all of that makes me happy. There's the saying, God doesn't give you more than you can handle. And reflecting back on my past, it's true. When you try to stuff your "plate" so you have it all, things start to fall apart. The year I thought I had found love I also had my lowest GPA of my college career and endured some excruciating fights with my family. And the year I ran a half marathon, secured two job offers before graduation, and never missed a 10pm mass I was as single as a stick. When I'm secure enough in my life God will guide me to my person or them to me or my friends to make those introductions happen it worked for Mom and Dad. And until that time, I will be still and know that He is with me. 

                 Be still and know that I'm with you. Be still and know that I am here. Be still and know that I'm with you. Be still, be still, and know. When darkness comes upon you. And sleep no longer finds your bed. Remember all the words I said. Be still, be still, be still. If fear falls upon your bed and sleep no longer comes. Remember all the words I said. Be still be still and know. And if you go through the valley. And the shadow comes down from the hill. If morning never comes to be. Be still be still be still. And if you forget the way to go. And lose where you came from. Just know I am standing beside you. Be still be still be still
                                                                                   Be still and know that I'm with you. Be still and know I am